Author: Akiva

Day 119: GVHD Seems To Have Resolved, For Now.

photo 2-2It has been a week since they put Idan on the higher dose of steroids for the GVHD and it seems to have done the trick. So tomorrow we will start tapering the dosage and the long road to get off the steroids. With GVHD there is always a chance that it might return when we start reducing the dose, so the doctors will be monitoring his skin closely as we cut down by 10% every 5 days or so. This means that we will have to deal with all the side effects and extra meds that the steroids come with for a couple more months. It has been hard to see Idan have mood swings and laugh or cry for no apparent reason as well as deal with his increased appetite. After a large breakfast at 7:30AM he starts asking for lunch at 10:30AM and so on. On the bright side we are getting a taste of how Idan will be as a teenager so we will be well prepared 🙂

The test poke in Idan’s arm went really well yesterday. As mentioned in our last post we cannot wait to get his central line out and based on this week’s success we hope they schedule this for next week. Amanda and I were so nervous that Idan would have a fit, or that they would need to poke him several times to find a vein that works.  We spent several days preparing him and telling him about it, even acting it out on each other. Alas, we had a great nurse, and with one poke he got the blood (and a lot of it) and our little superhero did not even flinch! So after over 100 blood draws from his central line it looks like we will finally be getting it out!

photo 1-2Still, it is hard to forget that we are still living in limbo and do not know if Idan will reject his graft or reach a point where his donor graft stabilizes. They will test chimerism again on March 10th and like with each of these tests before, it is a toss up and we really do not know what to expect. the good news we are focusing on is our eminent return to NYC. If tapering the steroids in the next couple of weeks goes well we can continue all our care in NYC with our pediatrician and immunologist.  We will be bringing back a  boy with an even worse off immune system, as he is still on two immunosuppressants, but we hope our life can start to return to normal. Keeping Idan safe, healthy, and happy is definitely going to be a big challenge in NYC and we hope that by the time we head back in mid-March the weather in NYC will improve.

For now we have decided that we need to get out and see Seattle a bit more in these last few weeks here as we both came to the realization that there will be no real vacations for us anytime soon. So we are going to squeeze in some more parks and sites of Seattle in between clinic visits and tests.

Day 100: A Bittersweet Milestone.

photo (1)Today we officially mark the 100th day post-transplant milestone. They say that the first 100 days of transplant are the hardest, and carry the most risk of infection and GvHD. Idan has made it to this point in great shape and has continued to grow and thrive despite everything he has been through. This is of course a reason to be very happy that we reached this point. Then again, Amanda and I always thought that by day 100, we would be well on our way towards a cure for Idan and preparing to return to our home and family in NYC. Instead, we are still in limbo and nothing much is changing at this point. We are staying in Seattle, for now, and Idan’s central line will stay in as well. We stay on most of the oral meds he has been on for the last 3 months including the immunosuppression that both keeps his immune system low but also carries other side effects. And we are also no closer to knowing if Idan will be cured, with only 12% donor T-cells and a graft that has not shown itself to be stable yet.

And yet, we stay positive and hopeful that things will get better and Idan will be cured. Having an optimistic approach to Idan’s challenges is the only way I know how to deal with adversary. Any other approach, in my mind is futile and lacks utility. I don’t spend my time thinking of the “what if’s” or second guessing decisions I have made. My positive attitude is directly correlated to the fact that Amanda and I have made our own informed decisions regarding Idan’s health. It is for this reason that I am positive that we both made the right decisions and that things will be okay. After all, this is the belief that allowed me to make it to this point in in the first place.

imageI was not supposed to be here. At least, if you go according to a couple dozen top neurosurgeons and neuro-oncologists. Eight and a half years ago I was diagnosed with an “inoperable” brain tumor in my brain stem. I was told I could not have it removed, and I was told if I tried, I would most likely die, or become so disabled that quality of life would not be worth the risk. Then, like now, I was not content to give up, and instead spent months, with my family, researching and finding the best option, one that can give me a chance. As with Idan’s Seattle Children’s Hospital, my saviour would be a so-called “cowboy” surgeon in Arizona. I was told by almost every other doctor not to to go down there and was “fired” as a patient from some for doing so. But it was my decision, and my true conviction that things will be okay, and that I can beat this, that allowed me to leap off the cliff and face Fear himself and survive.

It was that decision, to live, that led me to this point. It was the fact that I needed months of rehab to recover that led me to staying an extra year at Columbia. It was that extra year at Columbia that allowed me to meet the girl I had crushed on for 4 years, and it was a cumulation of all my decisions until that point that made me the man Amanda fell in love with. And out of that love, came a new one, a new era, our little Idan.  This is why I know that things will be okay, that Idan will be cured and will survive and do great things in his life. It is because he was not just born to strong willed parents that are survivors, it is that he has an inherent positive outlook as well. He is the one sitting through all the poking, prodding, and procedures. He is the one that received chemo, infusions and surgery, and he is the one that has kept smiling and thriving despite it all.

The 100 day mark is another badge of survivorship that Idan and our family wear with pride. It is not the end of our journey, it is still just the beginning. Today we are thankful that we made it to this point and Idan has stayed healthy and we mark another badge of honor on the wall of our life’s journey.  We have many more voyages ahead, and probably some stormy weather, but we know that we can face these challenges and that we will come out stronger. Idan has been our hero since this all begun and he continues to be the brave little boy leading our way.

Are We Lucky? – Words of Wisdom from My Father

IMG_0162At first look, it is a bit unbelievable how unlucky my life has been. I mean, not a lot of folk would think that it is lucky to have a brain tumor at age 25. And while the type of tumor was luckily benign, it was located in the most unlucky of places in my brain – smack in the middle of my brainstem! Every time I went to a new neurosurgeon or neurooncologist there was moment of double-take, where the doctor looked surprised and said, “oh, that’s not a good place!” It meant that my tumor was “inoperable” and I would have been out of luck if my family and I did not find a “cowboy” surgeon with the unique skill-set that was needed to save my life.

My luck turned around afterwards. I recovered from brain surgery, had to stay an extra year at Columbia, but got to meet the love of my life as an added bonus. Fast forward a few years, and Amanda and I were lucky enough to have a beautiful seemingly-healthy baby boy. Months went by with us thinking that we are the luckiest people in the world, happy, in love and enjoying our baby boy’s first milestones together.

But luck turned around again, with a rush to the ER, three weeks in the ICU where our son’s life hung by a thread and ended with a diagnosis of Hyper IGM, a 2-in-a-million genetic mutation that left our son with a faulty immune system unable to protect him. The only cure was a transplant, an expensive and risky procedure that meant leaving our home, our jobs and our family for at least six months.IMG_9744

After 10 days in-patient at Seattle Children’s Hospital, spending 24-7 with Idan, tending to his needs while serving his endless demand for entertainment and company, my father pointed out something very true. He wrote to me that “both of you and idan are soo sooo lucky that you are spending this time together and you are watching him grow and develop every second of his day…which of course means every second of your day… but in today’s world how many parents can say they are able to do this…” My father is right. Despite the circumstances and the hard and scary road ahead, we are so lucky to be able to spend this time with Idan. We are lucky to both be around to see him draw for the first time, and say his first words. We are both lucky to be around to see him so happy and playful and full of joy, 24-7. Sure, we have zero income for the next few months, and both our careers are on hold, but we are saving our son’s life, and getting to spend time with our baby boy while doing so.

When Idan is cured, and we are back in NYC, back at work, trying to balance work and family again, when Idan’s army has moved on to help the next little boy in need, we will know that we were lucky to spend so much time with our first born and watch him become the hero he is destined to be.

Hyper IGM, How Did We Get Here, and Where Are We Going?

photo (2)Hyper IGM, bone marrow transplant, immunodeficiencies, what does this all mean and why are we doing all this to our son Idan? For those of you still trying to make sense of the whole process, I am going to try and simplify it so that it is easier to follow.

What is X-Linked Hyper IGM?

Our son Idan was born with a genetic mutation passed along on his X Chromosome. The syndrome itself almost always only affects boys as girls have two X’s and are mostly just carriers. Since it never appeared in our family before, we had no way of knowing Idan had this until he got sick in April. Hyper IGM is so rare (2 in 1,000,000) that it is never something that is tested for (and most doctors probably never even heard of it).

So how does it affect Idan? Basically the gene mutation means that he is missing a protein that his T-Cells need to produce (called CD40 Ligand) that is necessary to produce Antibodies, or immunoglobulins. This protein is also used by the T-Cells to communicate (AKA tango with) with the B-Cells and allow them to do their job as needed. This leaves a huge hole in his immune system. Imagine an army with lots of foot soldiers (T-cells) and Special Forces (Immunoglobulins) constantly at battle with the world around us. This army keeps us all safe on a daily basis, and when we encounter viruses or bacteria that the foot soldiers cannot not fight off, the special forces take over. Idan has no  ability to create special forces at all, so he cannot recognize or destroy any viruses (think flu, cold, mono, herpes, etc.) so those can kill him. He also has lots of T-Cells that do not know the basics of fighting because the B-Cells cannot give them proper instructions. Therefore, he is susceptible to many opportunistic infections (like the PCP/PJP that almost killed him in April) that the rest of us just fight off without even feeling sick.

What are the dangers of Hyper IGM?

First, recurrent infections can lead to major organ damage. Idan’s lungs were in very bad shape after beating the pneumonia back in April. As time goes by many Hyper IGM kids have orgran damage to the lungs and liver from these infections. Second, opportunistic infections such as cryptosporidium, a parasite found in water, can kill Hyper IGM patients as there is no cure for cryptosporidium without a functioning immune system. Lastly, cancer, malignancies and liver and central nervous system diseases. As time goes by there are higher risks of all these, leading to a median age of 24 for Hyper IGM patients. Our immune system is constantly fighting off cancers before they even become an issue and our son’s immune system cannot do that.

So what can be done?

In the short term we have been treating Idan with immunoglobulin replacement therapy. These are the weekly infusions of IGG’s which is one of the 4 types of antibodies he is missing, and the only ones medicine knows how to replace.  This, coupled with major lifestyle changes (like isolation, bottled water, etc.) has kept Idan safe since April. Some Hyper IGM patents can live for many years this way, but since Idan’s mutation is the most severe form (i.e., he expresses no CD40L at all), the odds of this being enough are against him. The only known possible cure is a Bone Marrow Transplant which essentially would replace his entire army with a donor’s army that works properly.  But this is a complicated and risky process with high risks and no guarantees.

So What Is a Bone Marrow Transplant (BMT)?

Currently, there is no way to fix the gene mutation that causes Hyper IGM, but there is a way of replacing the bone marrow and giving Idan a new immune system. One can look at the bone marrow as the army base that the immune system (as well as the blood) is created and trained in. The idea is, if Idan’s b-cells cannot produce the protein he needs, lets give him a new army base, with soldiers that know what they are doing. But it is not that simple:

1) Currently the army base in his body is filled with soldiers (even if they’re not too smart), so there is no vacancy for him to host someone else’s army.

2) Idan’s body (AKA, the equipment, building and land that needs protection) is a perfect match with his current army, and no other army (AKA the donor’s bone marrow) is going to know how to work it in the same way.

3) Any gap in the protection that his army is giving him (albeit a lazy one) will open up his body to infections.

4) In order to create a vacancy in his army base so that a new army can move in, the old one needs to be eliminated entirely. The way they do this is with chemotherapy, which has the nasty side effect of destroying the bone marrow, and in our case we want that. However, that process comes with its own risks of toxicity to the body.

With all the risks involved Amanda and I decided that BMT is the way to go. BMT will give Idan the best chance at a long and healthy life. We did a lot of homework and spoke to dozens of bone marrow teams around the world. We decided on Seattle because of the new type of chemo drug they are using (Treosulfan) that is less toxic than others. If all we need is to clear the army base from soldiers why bomb random cities and cause damage to the whole land?

How will this cure Idan?

First they will use chemo and ATG to eliminate his bone marrow and suppress his immune system. This is what we are doing from Day -6 to Day -1. We then give Idan a day of rest while the chemo in his system continues to clear out all the soldiers from his army bases (including the civilian side of his bone marrow that produces red blood cells). On Day 0 the transplant date, we will infuse Idan with the donor’s army. His army has been found to be a 10/10 match to Idan’s. While this is great news, it is not the whole picture. This new army is not really going to understand how to relate to all of Idan’s body parts, and will most likely still want to attack some of it (this is called Graft ss Host disease, and it happens with 70% of the transplants from unrelated donors like Idan’s). For this reason they use the ATG, and the other immunosuppressants to allow the new army to come into the empty base, but forces it to unpack, train, and start patrolling very very slowly. Giving the new army more time to get adjusted to Idan’s body is a delicate balancing act that will happen over the next year. Since they are letting the bone marrow come in and start working very slowly there is a longer time where Idan is lacking any working immune system and will be kept in isolation as well as be given drugs to protect him.

So what is next?

Day -6 to day 0 we are clearing his bone marrow and making room. On Day 0 he gets the transplant, and we start counting days until the bone marrow travels to the base and starts setting up shop. We hope to hear around Day 22 that they have reached the base and that would be engraftment. We will then wait until we see his counts go up. The first type of soldier to come back (or, better put, to “grow”) is his neutrophils (which work fine now, but we have to get rid of them with the rest of the army) and they will wait until that level is good enough to get released to isolation at our apartment. This will happen between day 30 and 50 and then we will count to day 100 before they might let us go back to NYC. From then on and until around 2 years post transplant Idan will still have a weak immune system. Our hope is that around one year post-BMT, his new army will be strong enough and acclimated to his body to start reducing the supplemental protections we are giving him. Along the way there are going to be many scary events but we and the medical team will deal with them as they come up.

In a few years, when Idan can go to nursery school, play with other kids, take swimming lessons, play in the park and ride the swings all with the protection of his donor’s army, we will know we did the right thing to ensure Idan has a normal, healthy and happy life.

 

Day -4 – Last dose of Treoslofen and First Dose of Rabbit ATG – So Far So Good.

photo (1)Day -4 was a hard one on me, but pretty smooth sailing for Idan. After spending most of the night up with him in my arms I was exhausted by the time Amanda came back to the room at 8AM. Idan took a few naps throughout the day and played the rest of it. I was lucky to be able to pop home for a quick nap in the afternoon as well while Idan got his last dose of Treosulfan chemo and the ongoing dose of Fludarabine chemo. He tolerated them well. By the time I came back they had moved us to a room with a nicer view (they said it was a better suited airflow room for Idan, but I think it had to do with Amanda’s jokingly asking the nurse that morning for a room with a view 🙂 ).

In the afternoon, Idan started his rabbit ATG, which is a powerful immunosuppressant. This is the drug the doctors told us would have the worst effect on him, making him sick and giving him flu-like symptoms.  It is a slow infusion over 6 hours, and they gave him Tylenol and Benadryl first. So far he has tolerated it well.  He has a few more hours and he is asleep now. Hoping it continues that way. So far Idan has also maintained his appetite and has been eating his normal food (and lots of Bamba). That is expected to change in the next few days as his counts continue to drop and his immune system completely disappears. Only thing I am really worried about tonight is later on they need to change the dressing on his central line and we hope it does not start to bleed again.  I get to sleep back at the apartment tonight while Amanda stays here, hoping it is a better night than last. I hope to write a good summary of the whole transplant plan right after this post.  Thanks for all your support and best wishes!

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